Lyrics:



Electronica:

"Amarum Amatoris"

Odi et amo.
Quare id faciam,
fortasse requiris?

Nescio,
sed fieri sentio
et excrucior!

Militat omnis amans!

Cur haec in terris
facies humana moratur?




"In Your Own Thoughts"

How small a thought it takes to fill a whole life!

Death is not an event in life:
we do not live to experience death.
If we take "eternity" to mean not "infinite temporal duration",
but "timelessness",
then eternal life belongs to those who live in the present.




"Please"

Please, don't make me say these words
they only show how sorry I am,
how much I hurt.

Please, tell me where I stand.
Don't hide behind those lies;
show me who I am.

Please, please, please!

Please, there's nothing left inside!
There's nothing left to show or hide!
I'm not me!
Why can't you see?

There's no more tomorrow, there's no more today.
What's left of my heart is just slipping away.
There's nothing left to me, there's nothing inside.
I don't even have the courage to die.
The walls closing in, things are falling apart,
and no more excuses inside of my heart.
There's nothing left to me but anger and pain;
is this what it's like to go insane?

There's no more to see here, there's no more to do.
What's left of my heart is just longing for you.
There's nothing but hunger, there's nothing but need.
I don't even know what else I should believe.
There's no escape now, there was no escape then,
and no more that I can think of to say when
I take nails to my eyes and my soul starts to bleed,
"Someone, help me, please!"

(Please,) show me what to do.
I don't want anything but you,
and I can't live like this.
Can I?




Musicals / Jazz / New Age / Pop:

"Missing You"

I've lost my way
without you by my side.
I need you here
with me just one more time.
But I know
this is true:
I can never
be with you.

It hurts so much
to lose you in this way
(such a stupid way!)
You'll never know
how completely I feel this way
(I can't make it go away!)
If only I could see
how this story ends,
or where I'll be,
and learn to love again!
There's nothing that I can do
'til then!
So here I am
missing you.

I don't need someone to turn to.
I don't need someone to replace you.
But 'til my heart knows this is true,
I'll still be here thinking of you!
Though I will try,
I know that I will fail
(repeatedly!)
I'd rather die
than let you see me cry
(even one more time!)

If only I knew what to do,
to stop missing you.




"BB"

A journey to the stars...



"Last Song (English Version -- demo)"

Wandering all alone,
remembering a time when we were happy,
I can't forget the way I felt --
a captive in your eyes.

I know I should move on, but somehow,
here I am, thinking back to
a time when there was only me,
when there was only you.

"Even now, my love is true!"

Come and stand with me
in the falling snow;
hold me close,
don't ever let me go!
Stay with me
until my final breath!

I don't want to go,
but I can't bear to stay.
You once seemed so close,
but now you're far away.
Still there's only you,
here inside my heart!

Shivering in the cold,
crystal sighs hang in white,
believeing I'm alone with you
once more lost in your eyes.
Strangers come and friends will go;
seasons change and only memories remain,
leaving only chances lost
and time that slipped away.

"Even now, I remember you!"

If you hold me close,
if you hold me tight,
I will keep you warm
long into the night.
Stay with me,
'til everything's alright!

I have nothing to give!
I have nothing to lose!
I have nothing to say,
and it's time for you to choose --
will you stay with me,
or will you let me fade away?

I don't want to be alone!
Without you I just cannot hold on!

Encapsulated by the endless white,
disappearing into the moonlit night,
though enchanting it's not real,
and it hurts to know that all of this
will end in silence!

Come and stand with me
in the falling snow;
hold me close,
don't ever let me go!
Stay with me
until my final breath!

Come and stand with me
in the falling snow;
hold me close,
don't ever let me go!
Stay with me
until my final breath!

There is so much to give!
There is so much to lose!
There is so much to say,
and it's time for you to choose --
stay with me,
don't let me fade away!

Will you hold me close?
Will you hold me tight?
Will you keep me warm
long into the night?
Stay with me,
'til everything's alright!

You were once so close,
now you're so far away.
Though things have changed,
I will stay the same --
holding only you
here inside my heart.

"There is only you, here inside my heart!"




"Redemption (English Version)"

I stand alone and watch your shadow
silently returning to the sky.
(「うらみをはらしてやる。」)
I keep watching 'til I can't feel anything,
until my tears have dried.

I swear that I will never forget
the sorrow overflowing from
the scars that I have earned,
that won't fade away.

Someday I'll be able to fly again,
unfurl these broken wings and destroy it all!
I will not forget you and I'll never rest,
until the final bell of this lonely dirge has tolled!

(「過去は全て忘れて、)
(今を大切にしよう、)
(未来だけを見つめよう。」)

My trembling fingertips trace crimson tears
flowing from my eyes.
(「失うものは無いから。」)
I feel them fall and tear through the veil
of my dark memories.

I swear that I will never forget
the warmth in your last smile,
even as my heart dies
and fades away!

Even if your tortured lips could speak again,
there's nothing you could say that would heal me now!
This body has become an instrument of vengeance;
I couldn't love again -- I don't know how!

Because someday everyone
must return to the sky,
you'll never need to say,
to say goodbye!

Someday I'll be able to fly again,
unfurl these broken wings and destroy it all!
I will not forget you and I'll never rest,
until the final bell of this lonely dirge has tolled!

Even if your tortured lips could speak again,
there's nothing you could say that would heal me now!
This body has become an instrument of vengeance;
I couldn't love again -- I don't know how!

Redemption!